Death Note - the power to kill...

Have you ever dreamt of making the world a better place? Have you ever thought of eradicating the evil? Have you ever wanted to kill someone who definitely deserved it?..

Eventually this comes down to a question: would you kill the evil if you had methods and means of doing it within the distance, just by looking at someone's face and spelling their name? Would you dare to take the challenge and to become a murderer yourself for the sake of a better world?..

I am not sure if anyone would ever get this opportunity in the real world, but Yagami Light did get it in the imaginary one. And so he accepted the dare...

His method is very sophisticated, but simple. He has got a book called a Death Note. This book allows him to write down a name of a person he wants to kill. In addition, a Death Note allows writing down the time of death and the reason. Therefore, the owner of a Death Note is able to control his victims prior to their death.

Amazing, isn't it? But how far could you go with this? It definitely turns you into a Death God, a shinigami, as they are called. Being a God might not be that easy as you think. And so it happened to the young genius Yagami Light...

What do you think would happen to you?..

Some optimistic inspiration after a double vodka redbull :)

I have started this blog with loads of pessimism. At least with some sadness in my mind. However, tonight I am feeling quite happy. Though, the whole day was not that successful. I was quite down due to the fact that I was feeling little bit without any future career prospects. Sometimes I do get that feeling and then I just start thinking that I chose a wrong degree (should have done something more vocational like medicine). Especially, when I start applying for the internships and realise that most of them are in the financial sector. Anyway, I don't think the degree is a problem. It is just my stupid split personality. Sometimes due to some unknown reasons I fall into that shit and become an absolute pessimist. On the other hand, I can be a cheeky guy with a good sense of humour and with an outgoing personality. That is the side of myself that I love. Both of them appear but the pessimism was taking over.

Anyway, tonight I kind of understood that it is my lifestyle that keeps me being stressed. Once I went to a bar, started sipping vodka red bull and had a chat with some people, I just started feeling different. The whole mindset just simply changed. Not because I was drunk or anything. I just felt little bit more relaxed than I was and the whole world started being so easy to conquer :) I loved it. It actually indicates that I put constraints on myself and therefore I feel harnessed all the time. 'There is no money', 'no time', 'no need', those are the most common phrases I hear in my mind. They are pragmatic and make sense, but I kind of feel that they just keep things as they are and do not allow any change. Sometimes you must be an optimist and an idiot at once to succeed. As Remarque once put it: fools are the ones that succeed as the clever ones put so many restraints in their mind so that they don't even start doing anything. Yeah, I should be that fool. A responsible fool. I do want to succeed and I swear God I will do it!:)



Yeah, and I should go out more often. That's when I start lively and prosperous again. Working, studying and seriously thinking about stuff is useful, but does not lead to absolute happiness :) Anyway, I have started talking bullshit :) But it was just a random post at 2 am in the morning. Night!;)

P.S Guns and Roses are awesome! Same as Japanese people!:D

My one-sided love for football

'Listen. When you get the ball think that all the spectators are watching you. Think that they are looking at you alone. And then put all your effort into getting the ball even one step closer to the goal...'



I don't know why but I have stopped being good at football since last year. When I came to Britain and started playing I could compete with good British guys. But later on, I somehow lost all the confidence and could not play my game. Obviously, they have a different style based on a physical contact and precision of passing and shooting, but still it is nothing difficult to deal with. I could easily adapt to it and still maintain my very own style which is normally based on a good ball control, dribbling and my speed. But I somehow couldn't play well because when I get the ball I feel pressure as I would think that if I lose the ball, everyone's going to regard me as a bad player and won't pass the ball to me anymore. Since I have started feeling that pressure I couldn't play well even in very friendly games which would have no significance. Basically, I can't enjoy football as much as I used to because of being conscious of what the others might think about I playing badly. Obviously, when you start doing it you get into a deep crisis as you actually start playing badly. Though, most of the guys I play with are definitely not way better than 'real' me (apart from one Japanese guy who is absolutely amazing). Unfortunately, I have no clue how to get rid off this problem. However, I will do my best to carry on playing and building up confidence again. At least, that is what I feel like doing as I still love playing football regardless of I being not that good. But I would definitely like to go back to the good old glorious times when I was playing in my school's intra-mural league and leading my team to victory...




'I am forever blowing bubbles. Pretty bubbles in the air... they fly so high, they reach the sky and like my dreams they fade and die!
Fortune's always hidding, I have looked everywhere. But I am forever blowing bubbles. Pretty bubbles in the air!'

Rurouni Kenshin

Oh, how I wish I could go back to those days of 18th or 19th century and live in Japan as a samurai. Not because I love fighting, but because I admire the codex of practice samurais would adhere to. Not all of them were saints, as none of us are, but there definitely had been some warriors that are worth admiration. Their sense of pride is appealing to me so much. Here is a short battle scene from my favourite samurai anime called Rurouni Kenshin:



'You are genius. I am jealous of you, Kenji. But I am sure you have noticed, too. In the end you cannot beat me. My strike... contains what I felt in all the battles of my life. Just like that time... Take this.. And feel this...'

The beginning/Pradžia/始め

Hey everyone/ Sveiki visi/ こにちは！

I am going to start this off in English as most of the potential readers will understand it.

The reason I have decided to start this blog is because I would sometimes feel full of thoughts that are bothering me all the time and that I could not get rid off. So, I have decided to start writing it down in order to avoid just simply being trapped in mind. At the same time, I have felt that my Lithuanian (yup, I am Lithuanian and I am proud of it!:) ) is getting worse and worse, so I need to start practicing writing again (yet I am still doing it in English).

Anyway, myself I am a student doing International Relations and East Asian Studies. Pretty weird degree, but those two subjects go on well together and I absolutely love it. I have no clue what exactly I am going to write in this blog, but I am quite certain that some of my politics stuff is going to be included.

People do say that I am crazy about East Asia and I probably am, though I deny having a 'yellow fever'. Well, at least I managed to maintain my composure and not to get mental when I was dining in a Chinese restaurant tonight and noticed that I was the only white guy inside :P But yeah, I won't deny it, I loved it :D It's up to you to decide if it is crazy :)

As well, I am pretty much of a reader. Well, I used to be before coming to university. I haven't read any fiction for one and a half year, but before I have probably read more than many people do during their lives. There have been many good books, loads of good authors, but Haruki Murakami and Erich Maria Remarque are still the best for me :) I have grown up with Harry Potter and Lord of The Rings, the books which turned me into a dreamer, and then I matured with The Black Obelisk and Three Comrades of Remarque and Norwegian Wood of Murakami. I might elaborate on them later as recalling those days when I was reading them is something amazing for me :)

Music... Mhm.. 60s, 70s, 80s and some modern stuff. I do not generalise on it as I prefer just to simply listen to an artist and tell whether I like it or not. But I still adore those guys from good old times such as The Beatles, Bob Dylan, Jimi Hendrix, Prince, Duran Duran, Bob Marley, The Rolling Stones etc. If you have read any of the Murakami's books or the Kerouac's 'On the Road', you would understand why I love them so much....

Finally, I do love football. Not the stupid American one, but the real football. I am not that good at it, but I still love playing and watching it. If I miss an opportunity to play I start regretting really badly.

Anyway, boring it may be, but that's a brief description of who I am. It gives you some idea, but nothing more than that (I hope..). And yeah, I do not really want to make it personal, so I'd rather stop here before I start telling about all my bad experiences. I am quite upset at the moment but rather think positive！：）